Bethany and I did some talking today. I hurt my back three weeks ago. When I went to see the chiropractor about it, he told me that I could not workout again until he said it was okay. He very rarely says that to anyone. Well, I had just started to see some real changes in my body and I didn't want to stop working out, so getting this news was not what I wanted to hear. Today, while I was trying to work, Bethany noticed that I was dealing with some stuff. I didn't want to talk about any of it because I didn't understand the emotions I was dealing with. I am angry. Why? Because I am not allowed to work out. I know, weird!
A couple of months ago, I decided I was ready to take the next step and set a few huge goals. I finally surrendered to the call God has placed on my life and decided to work toward that goal. We will save that topic for another day. Anywho, I was making progress toward those goals and then I tripped over the dog. I have irritated a nerve and have been experiencing a burning sensation down both legs and this is causing the anger and frustration. I know, because I have a history of back issues, that I will have to do what I am told and rest my back. The longer I rest, the better my back will be. I want my back to be better, but I also want to be able to workout with Bethany and actually keep up. So, I am frustrated!
It is funny to me that I was mad about not being able to work out. I commented that I had close to 100 lbs left to reach my goal and I cried. My dear friend said something today that empowered me (she doesn't know this yet). "What did you weigh at your heaviest?" I answered. "What do you weigh now?" I answered. "One hundred pounds is nothing for you."
That's me in the center of this photo. I weighed at least 385 lbs...could have been more.
And this is me between 255 and 260.
One hundred pounds is nothing for me. I can still set goals and do my best to meet them. I can get over this hurdle! I have lost weight and will continue to do so...the difference between the old me and the new me is I believe it now. I am much more confident now than before! I have a Cg story. I am actually a BOLD camper. I struggle. I cry. I sometimes want to give up. I just have to keep reminding myself that I am Cg Strong and keep moving forward. I don't know how long it will take me to meet my goals, but I promise you, it will happen. Jan. 2014 was just the beginning!
Be blessed an be kind!
